That was a bad day....

I was feeling awful the other day when I made that last post.  I don't think I made myself sound too clear.  I was referring to my work when I was commenting on how people don't know how to talk to me.  On my first day back in a team meeting I was greeted with harsh words by a colleague.  Others just sat and watched.  It still angers me thinking about it.  I don't think I have come so close to actually wanting to hit someone since I was a juvenile. I work with an individual who believes their opinion and negativity should be put out there for all to hear and see.  I basically walked in to a situation and someone's anger was directed towards me. The person actually came and apologized to me later.  I didn't accept it and told the person to get out of my room because I was upset with them.  I still haven't talked to this person.  I guess I can be pretty stubborn when someone does me wrong. I am too old to have to cater to others and their needs.  I have gone through life being understanding of others and their mental problems.  I think I can be mental for awhile and let someone understand me.

I have received so many cards and e-mails expressing sympathy for our loss.  Elaine is drawing a picture of Larry and I together.  I can't wait to see it.

It has been a headache dealing with all the paperwork that comes with losing someone.  Medical bills, bills in general...... I just wish someone would  knock me out for awhile and wake me up when it's all straightened out.

And then there is the belongings.  I haven't really even begun to think of what to do with that.  I have been wearing his shirts tho.  He has some really warm thermal shirts that have been comforting me while I sleep and work around the house.  When I wear them I feel like he is hugging me and keeping me warm.....

Comments

[Angie Wahweotten]

I'm happily surprised at your strength, love, openness and honesty, your sharing. As surprised and happy as I am shocked and disappointed by what happened to you at work :(.

I wish good things for you.

[Rob]

It's always hard being in the way of someone's negativity.
Just yesterday I was having a great day at work until lunchtime, when someone decided to sit down next to me and spout their negative attitude towards our employer (my tribe). It almost ruined my afternoon, but as soon as lunch was over I sought out those I know have a good attitude and shared what happened with them.
Good people can help you turn things around, and they helped resuce the day for me.
Just gotta watch out for the negative people, they're always gonna be there. But as Sun Bear (Winona LaDuke's father) used to say, "You can't stop them, but you can get out of their way."

Keep wearin' Larry's shirts as long as it makes you feel warm...